Someday these crookedlines will be set straight and conversations will neverbear your name.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
3:13 AM
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
3:16 AM
Mmm, finally.
My life isn't really happening now. In fact pretty boring if you ask me. But insanely busy, I'm not sure why either. I should be doing so much more for school, dang. :/ I really should. I like doing cheap talk. It makes life a lil easier to get by. 8)
Recently, I lost my phone on saturday at my pub and it was fucking hilarious. Well, cause, I started work at midnight, and I left my phone at the front counter as I was busy helping with some cake and refilling barrels, ha. Then I realized my phone was missing like, 5 mins after. Yet, I still didn't do anything bout it. It was only til like, 10mins later, I really started to worry. After losing my phone 5-6 times. (in a year, mind you) You dont really panic anymore. In fact, you barely care. Except for the fact your contacts will all be lost. :/ thank god of me, half of them are stored in my iTouch. 8) mmm..
Well, everyone was searching high and low for my phone, cause the back casing dropped on the floor, so we all assumed it fell on the floor. But after scanning the pub like, a zillion times, it was pretty obvious someone stole it. And yes, it was ringing. -.- So I got pretty annoyed, cause I knew my phone was somewhere in that fucking pub, yet I couldnt find it. So near yet so far. HA. I was telling Serene and Ting infront of table 2 (where the girls who stole my phone were sitting) "MY GOD, IF YOU'RE GOING TO STEAL MY PHONE, AT LEAST FUCKING OFF IT!!!"
Then I went to the counter and used their phone to call my phone. ha. NOW THEY OFF IT. :/ And they left like, 2 mins after. mehhh. _l_ So it was fucking obvious now. Pretty darn sure bout it too.
Then after like, half an hour, the guys came back and returned the phone to me. I had to ask him thrice "Where did you find it?" til his friend cut in and told me the girls took it. Relived that I got my phone back, I switched it on only to receive a message displaying "INSERT SIM CARD" _l_
I was like, "EH, call your friend return my SIM." and they told me she already snapped it. That fucking cunt. Think she fucking smart. Steal phone then return... with SIM. urgh. Thanks guys though!!!! <: So I was suppose to make my SIM on Sunday but I woke up kind of late. :/ Just as I was about to head to bed at 4am after reading my book, my house phone rang. I thought it was Emme and was about to kill her when I realized it was my aunt on the other line. Her voice sounded squeeky, and it didn't take someone smart to guess that she was crying. "Emily, is your mom up?""Nope, what's wrong?""Grandma doesn't look well, she might now pull through. Could you...""Okeh, me and mom will go down now. Bye."
So AuntSandra was also going down and picked me and mom up within ten mins. I was still in my sleeping clothes and just slipped on a bra. :/ When I got there, I just saw my Granny laying there. Motionless. Her skin had black patches and tubes were attached to her. Her feet were swollen due to water retention and she couldn't speak a word. I didn't know Granny was in such a state, and I felt fucking guilty for not visiting her earlier. Every one of my cousins had visited her. The whole family in fact. All 38 of them, excluding me.
Within the next hour, all her ten children were by her bedside, she was in so such pain that not one of us could pretend not to feel it. >: Then she left us round 5:45am with rosery in hand. In fact, none of us could believe it. Despite being prepared for it, and knew it was coming. The following hours were hectic and everyone was busy with preperations for the funeral. Some were to head down to SPH, some to buy white shirts, some to the church etc. But I went home before noon as I was just too tired to stay on.
I woke up close to 5pm by my mom who was madly banging on my door. Got ready and AuntSandra picked us up to head down to St Joseph Church. We had a buffet spread, prayers were conducted etc. Me and celine got pretty bored so we walked around bugis and the national library. (yes, in white shirts and black pants.) Borrowed two books though I havent started on either of them yet. Left for home round midnight and called up jean. Her mom learnt of my granny's death and invited me to stay over. Thank god, or else I'll be home alone. >:
Jean's my bestfriend, but I fucking hate her cat, no, seriously. Ordered mac with whatever pathetic money we had left. (I had $3.95) ahahahha. Everything was gone in 15mins, no joke. We all seemed as if we havent eaten in forever or something. AHHAHAHA I was bugging her sister, wondering wtf she's doing up so late, studying. ... then I realized she'll be taking her O level paper in 2 days. .__. That bitch fell asleep after the first two songs, so I was left alone to read my book til 4plus. >:
The next day, we woke up feeling extremely hungry. Like, instantly. O: So we decided to make egg tarts!!!!! :D When we told her sister about it, she was like, "no, I will not eat that!" But when they were all done, she had 2 out of the first batch (which only had 7) and then she ate ALL 9 in the second batch. FUCKING PIG RIGHT!!! AHAHAHHA. We were bugging her mom whether they were nice or not, "JEANYEE ATE ALL!!" HMPFFFFF. mmm!!! successful!! :D
Waited for Ritzness to come over and headed down to vivo to collect my SIM. Was suppose to head to church after that but mom "excused" me today as it was already late. I was so fucking happy seeing all my texts pop in one by one. I was telling Jean how "important" I felt and I bet she wanted to slap me there and then. AHAHAHHAHA. oh Emz, stop praising yourself. 8) Caught "Where Got Ghost" despite me being so agianst it. And true enough, I fucking hate it. Don't watch it. Use that money to feed strays more productive.
Well, It's a pathetic Thursday now, the only day I went to school this whole week. And my intention was to get my IC done. :/ Mass tmr to send off my grandma. Its been super long since I went to a mass. I still remember how in primary school we were made to say like, Our Father, Hail Mary and Glory Be To The Father alot. AHAHAHHAHA. I want to be a catholic.
mmm, nah. Actually, I'll reconsider when I have kids. 8)
I know the photos below have nothing to do with the above post, but they're really overdue and all. HEH.
KUISHINBO WITH BOSSES & CO-WORKERS :D
BEDOK, DOUBY AND TOWN WITH WA, :D
VIVO WITH EMME :D
cb your tattoo disappear already. AHAHHAHA.
emme, the name on your knuckles got kick sia. \m/
anyway, we made a few videos of us singing that day as well, but me being me, forgot to transfer them to my comp as I edited the photos off the memory. heh ohhwell, you guys could do without two pussy screaming at the top of their lungs. 8)
priceless.
meh, x
Saturday, August 15, 2009
7:25 PM
Finally, my song list. <:
veh reluctant to post this, but ohhwell. share the love i suppose? (half of this is mainstream anyway, the real goodies are safe with me, HEE)
The Scientist - Coldplay Do U - Do Or Die Ft Twista Part Of The List - Ne-yo No Suprise - Chris Daughtry I Need A Girl Remix - Trey Songz Feat Mase Echo - Gorilla Zoe Silly Boy - Lady Gaga Ft Rihanna Down - Jay Sean Obsessed - Mariah Carey Make Her Say - Kid Cudi One Time - Justin Bieber Sexy Bitch - David Guetta So Fine - Sean Paul Hush Hush; Hush Hush - The Pussycat Dolls I'm On A Boat - The Lonely Island ay ay ay - Taio Cruz Promise In The Dark - Keri Hilson Chillin' - Wale Feat. Lady GaGa We Are Rockstars - Does It Offend You, Yeah? Getting Into You - Relient K
Friday, August 7, 2009
1:08 AM
because i suck, and also cause tumblr is mega addictive, i have not been visiting blogger for awhile. but its really touching how my reader count didnt drop. :* anyway, so im back here to let you in on my veh un-eventful life. its really been long since ive had alot of drama. apart from work. you know people, drink drunk drama. heh.
i've set my sight on some katespade bag which i saw from the glass display at raffles. i could have gotten it, but it was fucking close. at barely 9:30. >: i cannot stand emme. everything i see a bag, she'll "it doesnt suit you" therefore i leave the shop emptyhanded each time. >: she is the reason why i have a huge bag shortage. recently, ive been buying countless of dresses. i dont even have a proper occasion to wear them to. :/ tsk, emz, tsk.
Ive only been in school 1 day this whole week, and neither am i going tmr. my attendance is fucked. i dont know why the school is keeping me. but i did my math homework for the first time this year, so thats something to rejoyce upon. my teacher always goes on how "if emily passes up her work, it'll be a true miracle". well, you've got your miracle mrs yeo. ;) now try for world peace.
SPEAKING OF WORD PEACE! i was watching this racist video on youtube yesterday, and this guy was touching on how fat girls are wearing "hipsters", and he was like, "and how do they find their hip?! ...i would also like to know" AHAHAHA. plenty more. it kept emme corin and me laughing at 1am in the morn. ;) pretty good shit. in fact i posted it up on my tumblr.
(the best pasta in the world @ modesto. (y)!!!
my days in school/after school have been filled with terrance fabeha, and more fabeha. fabeha, here i am to thank you properly for coaching me on math!! :* though i will fail today's paper CAUSE I FUCKING FORGOT TO INVERSE ALL SIGNS. TO THINK WILLSON TEXTED ME REMINDING ME TO DO SO,BUT I ONLY SAW THE TEXT AFTER THE PAPER. WOAH. FML
anyway, i caught "Up" in 3D at marina today. apart from the uncomfortable 3D glasses, the movie was really nice. a lil mix of humour and heartwarming. please dont tell me its a show for kids. ...unless you're legal to watch bruno in theatres. (please bring me along, i want to watch it so badly. >: ) you know what else i want to do veh badly too? head down to supperclub. no, not this sunday. anyday in fact. ive been keen to go there since last year when it first opened in singapore. p/s: i (partially) hate clubs.
after the movie, walked around cityhall and got myself some treats. 8) i love acessories. period.
@ dempsyhill with my longest best friend, katty! 8)
we've to do this again sometime alright katz? :*
Monday, July 27, 2009
2:17 AM
jean made me do this:
How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? i would be forever21, harhar.
Which is worse, failing or never trying? never trying. i believe that even if its going to end in nothing, i must feel it and experience it for myself.
If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? because society's like that. if everyone never did anything they disliked, mankind would not survive a day. (think no shops/banks/government)
When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? i think im pretty balanced.
What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? to make everyone love another, to care, share and find comfort in each other. <:
If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? gossiping. everyday, everyone is speaking ill of another. if you were paid for doing that, wow.
Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? what i believe in. even though it may not sound logical to others.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? um, i dont think things will really change for me. i ay get married at 18?
To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? 2 degrees, harhar.
Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? doing things right. i am a perfectionist.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do? i would argue back and prove my point if i feel that my friend is worthy of me defending.
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? "you'll learn on the way."
Would you break the law to save a loved one? yes.
Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? huh?
What’s something you know you do differently than most people? nearly everything. i laugh louder, sing louder, talk louder. <:
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? good question. cause one man's meat is another man's poison.
What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back? move to the states, start life afresh. i cant bear to part with some people, and i cant leave mom back here right?
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? yes. alot of hatred.
If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? America, my brother sister and dad is there. <:
Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? no, waste my time.
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? worried genius. i enjoy thinking and finding out answers to the impossible "why's"
Why are you, you? cause i am me? wtf is this
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? as far as i am concerned, yes.
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? when a good friend moves away. there's always a chance ill be close to the friend who lives near me again what.
What are you most grateful for? for the power of love.
Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? i rather lose all my old memories. AHAHAHA. im fucking 15. i have 50 years ahead of me to make new ones. ;) do the calculation
Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first? yes it is, but i challenge it anyway.
Has your greatest fear ever come true? my previous greatest fear? yes.
Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now? yes. and it does matter cause im in this shitschool cause of that.
What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special? when papa used to bring me treasure island to play the carnival games, then when we get home, mama would offer me a piece of caramel. cause i know things are never going to be that way again.
At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? when i was in love.
If not now, then when? when i feel like it, you dick.
If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose? the effort.
Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever? nope. how the hell is that communication?!
Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? cause they all love different things. and is more obsessed in their own belief of "love"
Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? nope.
If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? at my age, yes. i would buy over my pub and hire my boss. AHAHAHHA. joke.
Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? more work i enjoy doing. if you enjoy doing something, it is NEVER a chore.
Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? yup. thank you for reading my mind.
When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? when i said, "goodbye"
If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? it wouldnt really matter right? not like that gonna rmb them when you're dead.
Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? attractive, yes. i am addicted to prettythings.
What is the difference between being alive and truly living? AHAHAHHAHA. idk why you want me to explain something so simple.
When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? ive been doing that for nearly half my life.
If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? cause prevention is better than cure. -.-
What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? nothing. not like im bothered by what people say now right?
When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? last night. HEH.
What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? i love many. i work in the most secretive ways. AHAHAHHA
In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that? most likely, i remember stuff like these.
Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? im making them for myself. ;)
there you go. its 3am and time to retire to bed. xx
EMILYTEOGORALEWSKI
I had breakfast with my shadow. We had quite a discussion.
He mentioned how below my mask, i had more than flesh.
how "i deserved better" undergoing blatant lies
but in spite of everything, ill learn to love again.
to be someone's goodmorning and goodnight.
im finally here, to live and breathe my every fear.
to love and hate, smile and touch, hope, dispair, loath and tear.
with such a provocative attitude, i can piss the world off.
but why would i do that, love?
x-smores@hotmail.com
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